Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
This condition often begin with intense discomfort around one eye that persists for several hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.
What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.
Historical healing texts propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only formally classified by global medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.
In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.
A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.
National guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some individuals.
But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.
The official guidelines need revising to reflect a